Just stick to the plan

I was speaking with my hubby on the phone this morning, sharing with him my concerns about the economy amongst other important things. In just a matter of a year, I have met more people than I care to count that has been affected one way or another by this economy. Some people have lost their jobs, some people can no longer afford health care, some people have lost their entire life saving, while others have lost their homes. Every day I am simply amazed at the stories I hear first hand from individuals who were once living the "American Dream."

Anyway, I told me husband that I was a little bit scared, and his exact words were, "Why are you scared when you have a plan? Just stick to it." Immediately -and I do mean immediately- a heavy burden had been removed from my shoulders and I felt light on my feet again. All of a sudden the stories I had been hearing on the news meant absolutely nothing. All of the articles I had been reading meant absolutely nothing. In that few seconds I became confident in....well....me again.

Because, irregardless of what is going on in the world around me, all I have to do is stick to my plan. Now I understand that I may have to make necessary adjustments when the time comes, and that is to be expected but other than that I'll stick to my plan.

For example, the plan for me was to wait until I graduated from college before I started trying to look for work of any sort. Well the plan has been changed. Because of a huge discussion by my favorite blogger Khadija, I decided that I may need to start looking into another stream of income ASAP.

As long as I stick to the plan nothing can go wrong. Even if I get off track, the only thing I must do is get right back on track again. No sweat! This was the absolute best news that I've heard all year -and Spring has not even sprung.

My husband reminded me that he has had the same plan since he was just 17 years old. Although he has had to make some adjustments, overall things are going according to his plan. That was really encouraging to hear.

I'm sticking to the plan guys!

Lately

Boy...where do I start?

I have been on a natural high for the last few months. For the most part, I spend my mornings walking to the local produce store, my afternoons cooking supper and my evenings at the gym. So, it's very difficult for me to share with you the way I feel because I have no desire to have my words to appear diluted.

In fact, there are no words that could describe the drastic changes that are occurring within me or my life. There are no words that could tell about the calming feeling that have taken over me. There is nothing that I could say to you, my fellow man, that would give you a glimpse into my psyche at the moment.

What I can say though is that, I'm a peace with myself. I am maturing and wising up about my future. About my family. About my happiness and about my destiny. Each day I am elated and overly excited to be able to wake up and be granted another chance at living and proving myself to be an intelligent being. I'm taking nothing for granted, nor am I leaving anything to chance. And for the very first time in my life, I have set up boundaries for myself. For the very first time in my life, I am confident.

And I am not taking about the confidence that you "fake it until you make it". But the one that is marked by your character. The one that causes you to walk differently than you have ever walked before. The attitude that says to the world that you care about yourself, and they ought to take everything you say serious, or else.

I've suddenly become extremely important.

So, I hope you can imagine how difficult it would be for me to go into any details about this transition. It's something personal that must be felt, or witnessed, not written about.

With that being said, I hope things are going well with each of you. That you are learning and serious about your purpose in life. I hope each one of you find a reason to stand tall, and remain calm.

Living Life

Hi guys,

I haven't had a post in a while because these last eight weeks have been pretty busy for me. With the holidays and New Years and my children being home for Christmas Break, I was swarmed with things to keep them busy. Add to that, that I've been working out twice a day with my oldest daughter -plus plain ole' living life- and you can see why I haven't written anything in a while.

The energy in my household is really crazy. This year is looking very promising for everyone under my roof, and we are all just trying to take it one day at a time, so that we don't miss a valuable lesson. Which is really hard to do considering everything we have coming up, like my daughter's school trip to Hawaii in June. My husband is getting ready to change jobs, my son is getting ready to go to daycare part-time and I am going to register for ASU in February. So, things are going to undergo a complete change in our home, and by this same time next year, we should be in the process of relocating back to Pennsylvania. And from there, only God knows where we'll end up at, but I'd like to get my BA while we are living there, before we move anywhere else. Just three more years of college to go before I have my degree.

So things are really headed in the "right" direction, and with so much going on, it's rather difficult to find the time to really write.By 9:00 pm, I am normally in my bed reading my son a book, writing in my journal or reading a book myself.

I hope everyone is doing well themselves, still riding off the energy that 2009 brought with it.

Peace, and Love to us all!